Well, yesterday was the last day for us. He had to break up with cause of what his sister threaten him about. Idk. I dont feel anger at the sisters but at least they could have judge me first ma and yes we may be of different race but it's a relationship. If we didn't think far as marriage. I just wanted someone as awesome as him and when I got him the disapproval lead to my disappointment. I love him too much thats its gonna hurt when I read let myself go and that im not so sure when will happen. I have plans today, but I feel I just want to cancel them and just stay home and emo. I just want to be alone. I thought I was really gonna get to have a relationship that was gonna last very long but it turns out im wrong. It's like I'll never have a relationship that last. So im gonna close my heart. No more breaking, its too fragile. Anymore cracks and it's shatters. Hias. We spend so much time together doing all we can. Making each other smile and laugh. Bringing joy into each other's life. For a month is was blissful. Then how am I gonna get thru the rest of the year? Hias. Too much too think but i just don't want to think. I've lots of promises to him,

- Eat more veggies

- don't sleep late

- Dont eat Maggie often

- don't get a Chinese boyfriend

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And a few more I think. Hias. Why? Why? Must it be this way. :(( it hurts.

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