i will do it. i will end it. cause this is nothing but a friends mode. but i will do it after this week. after his competition and after zheng xun's birthday celebration. and usually i would be glad to end the relationship since i hate to bring down the barriers around my heart but i actually loved him during our 4 months together. really. it was the best relationship ever. we had fun hanging out together, lauging and making jokes. i love how it was cool and fun to go cook pasta at his house together and enjoy it like a couple. and i love the baking with the group it was fun. Eating sushi buffet with kenneth, jerick, you, jerome. it was fun, laughing with u guys. it was just fun to hang out together and do something random. :) and i had an awesome time with him, kenneth and zheng xun when we went to the Great great world or fun fair at marina area. i had the time of my life, we laughed so much together. i love it. and i missed it. i was always hoping it would happen again but i was never good at waiting. and i'm surprised i've waited so long for you cause you either reject me everytime i asked you or you rather i go out with other people not that i dont want to but i also wants to spend time alone with you away from school. but this blows! you treating like nothing happens between us or you really have no feelings for me and i have no freaking idea why u wont talk to me either. i've waited far too long, sc. but im done waiting. im sorry. i cant bear to see your face everyday and see in your eyes that you no longer like me anymore. i cant take the pain. i cant take being abandon by you. i thought being in a relationship with you would be different from my other rs and i admit it was. but sadly things changed. or you have changed.

i have always love you, babe. and every passing day of last month my doubts of you kinda grew bigger and bigger and i hate not knowing the truth. i kinda miss the happy, teasing you. i do.

but the time u read this or anyone from our clique i would have already break up with you. or probably at home crying my heart. but hey, at least i know i have people who have my back. and i know that the boys in our clique would be on your side but im ready to stand alone if it means i have to do this.

there is no turning back is there?

and sc, i didnt really drop you hints much during our first 4 months together but after that i did and is either you just reject them or plain dumb for not realising.