Today, turn out to be very gloomy- my mood. First period ardy gotten to papers. My MATHS and CPA.

MATHS : 63/100

CPA : 39/54

Something Mr cheng really make me think me more about my maths. He said that some of the other teachers believe that i could take the top position again. But its been 3 years ardy. I donnoe whether i can still make it. The others are very competitive and their results are super damn good. He say that im just LAZY. He said that i could have simply score 20 more marks on my maths if i study. I donnoe what to say. I just cant seem to get my head to hit the books for long. I donnoe how to help myself. Yesterday, after basket ball game with jeremy. We went to the library to cool down. Saw hym. An hour later, went home. Came back for night study. Was the first to reach. When to Ntuc Fairprice with the girls. When we saw them outside. Saw hym again - very up close. And i still very sad. Twice in a day is called a miracle and im still not happy. Now, i not so sure what in life makes me happy. Got to try harder.